So embarrassing.

Somehow my flickr account was linked to my blog, and keeps sending out photos of old headshots. I must at some point have linked the two, but I certainly don’t remember doing it, and I apologize for the seemingly self-aggrandizing links to photos of yours truly. My email rejected the photos of myself so quickly that they went straight to the junk mail box. It wasn’t until my sweet Grandmother emailed me about how much she loved the photos that I even had any clue it was sent out. Oh, how disgusted I was with meself!

There really are so many ways to make a fool of yourself online, and I have tried to reduce the number of websites I myself am linked to to help lessen my chances of that. But alas, let’s be honest, it’s not that hard for me to do. So, I have deleted my flickr account.

However, to perhaps juxtapose this action, I have, in the meantime, re-signed up for facebook. Last May, in a big grand gesture, I deleted myself permanently (or semi-permanently in this case) from the tease and devil that is facebook. I found myself spending embarrassing amounts of time looking at pictures and uploading pictures, feeding my ego, hiding from the outside world, and it had to go. I had over 650 friends, half of which I had spoken to once or twice in my life, and most of which I honestly didn’t care to ever see again.

So, why after all this did I re-sign up? Because I have found a new god-honest self-discipline. Also, I have been away from it for so long that I don’t have that same neediness attached to being a member. I can easily sign on, check what’s about for five minutes and then log off. Am I being self-deluded? No, I don’t think so. I am actually so self-disciplined that I only allow myself to go online Tuesdays, Thursdays and Fridays…after all, I have a book to complete, people! Stay with me! And yes, today is Tuesday, hence the blog post.

Anyway, being halfway across the world on another continent, it seems the best way to connect with even real friends is the satanic facebook. So, I have succumbed once again, but in a new light. With a new outlook. I’ll let you know how it goes…

On another note, on Twitter I noticed someone posting daily photos on this website called DailyBooth.com, and so what do I do when I see a link? I click on it, sign up and test it out! Duh! Yeah, then I noticed it seemed dodgy and there were mostly teenagers trying to look really cute, and I thought “Not for me!” So, I went to the place where you’re supposed to be able to delete yourself, and they write: “We will be adding this feature to the website soon but for the time being you will need to just hold off.”

What?? That to me is the most unacceptable answer I could have ever dreamt of. It’s bad enough when facebook told me I had to wait two weeks before I could be deleted just so I would be completely “sure” that was the right decision for me. Who are they to have that kind of power? They assume you won’t be strong enough during those two weeks to not want to sign back on, and if you do, well, then you have to wait another two weeks.

You know what, I changed my mind. Facebook is still the devil. (And I do realize the irony of that statement as I hit “publish” and this blog will automatically push to Twitter and Facebook…thus promoting my blog).

And, what am I going to do about dailybooth.com? I emailed them directly with my viewpoints on having to “hold off” for the time being on deleting my account. Surely that must be illegal….

(GOOD NEWS – since posting this, I have since been made aware of this website where you can actually commit social media suicide! Of course, Facebook has blocked it from their site, but that’s no great surprise. Web2.0 Suicide Machine understands what people need…apparently.)